I'm Alive!

This vid is of my brother and I about 7 or 8 months ago in our basement. This is done to the "Alive Prelude", found in Superchic[k]'s cd, "Rock What You Got". It's the second track. It leads into the great song "Alive". You can tell we were reaaallly bored. It took us several hours to come out with two FULL good takes. Thank goodness I'm covered with that blanket and the lighting is REALLY bad. I had a terrible hair day, so you can't tell (hahaha!!!! YES! I LOVE bad lighting!). So enjoy, if you haven't already. It was a lot of fun. Urm...that's NOT my voice in the movie, thank goodness :).

I am not doing so hot in the fan-fic category. I apologize. Yellow Rose is coming SOOOO slowly, as is UNF3, the supposed "joint-effort" book.....that I haven't contributed to quite yet. *Sigh*....I'm sorry Anna. And Vi. And Anna Marie. And Gracia. And....well I highly doubt Joe really cares to read it, and Patricia's manly man wouldn't care. And urmmmmm maybe Phil has been reading it? And KAT!!!!!! She read it!!! I'm soooo happy she did :). And Gretchen. And Elizabeth, if you've been reading, though since you have a Facebook you might not check my blog so often...so, yeah, apologies to all.

I was supposed to have gone to Virginia over the weekend, but that trip has been cancelled for a heart-breaking reason...My grandfather is battling his second round of brain cancer. He doesn't have much time. I went in to see him the other day. It nearly wrenched my heart out of my chest. His face was expressionless. He can't respond very well. Little grunts are his form of communication at this point. We prayed with him and both Father Weary and Father Lawrence came and gave him the sacrament of Last Rites. As we said a Chaplet of Divine Mercy, I could barely keep myself from sobbing hysterically. Just after the last "Holy God, Holy Mighty One, Holy Immortal One, Have Mercy on us, and on the Whole World," a great peace came over me, like a breath of fresh air. I heard a sort of echo-y voice.

"Courage, dear heart."

I swear I never felt so loved and peaceful in my life. All I could do was let the tears stream down my face as I mouthed "Aslan, Aslan..." over and over. I'm going to cry just recalling it. I glanced up. The door was a few meters in front of me. A great shadow passed it, but no figure went either before it or after it. This wasn't the first time I'd seen a shadow pass by like that. There was one night that I looked out my window and saw the shadow of a slim, tall young man. I blinked, and he was gone. This time I was certain there had to have been something there. The peace that had overcome me.....the love that seemed to envelope me.....it was so real. So pure. So there. You can't imagine something like it. "I'm either posessed or obsessed," I've said before, but this was to powerfully truthful to be posession. I know it. I may have the greatest imagination on Earth to have felt that, but it had to have been there. Something............

I almost envied my grandfather after that. All I could think was Beyond the Shadowlands.......Further up and further in.......My true country.........

I have touched true happiness. I had just one little taste, but....oh, Heavenly. It WAS Heaven.

It was there.

There is one goal. There is one life. I want to get there somehow.

"I'm never gonna stop until I reach You..."